Sunday, April 30, 2006
Well thing are going real fine nowadays ( except for my studies )hehe. Well it doesnt matter i noe that i can still do it as in still score if i study ( at least i hope so )
well a lot of things are forcing me to prolong my time to update my blog as i still got gpp ,tc and co practices . so actually u can say that my life is really very packed with things that i have to do weather i have to do it or not.
when i face some diffculties , i often say that why does shen have to trick me . why does shen have to let me experience the irony of life . but when i put myself into other people's situation i think i am a lot better. I promised myself that i will change and i did . i am now a person with a big heart , a big heart to forgive and forget.did i manage to do it ? well see for yourself then .
I don want to be alone i suddenly fear loneliness especially the loneliness of the night . i dread the feeling of being let alone at the verge of breaking down . i am really very tired i only hope that my faith in myself and my team mates can carry me through
and to all those who care about me THANKS A LOT you guys are he power that pulled me through the diffcult times...... If not for you guys (and gals) i would have fallen down ..... u people are my angel i wil treasure u all
what we could have been, 9:27 am.
Friday, April 14, 2006
Sometimes ppl jus tend to forget the most beautiful things tt linger around them. Just like yesterday the mardi gras performance , i doubt anyone noticed the beautifull sky tt is just above us .
When i was performaning on the stage i noticed the bautiful sunset tt lit up the horizon. I realised how much i have been missing when my life was surrounded with her all the time . i am not ssaying tt i regret noeing her but the fact tt every thhing lookk so unreal now makes my heart break .Jus like the sun set it looks so beautiful but never lasts.
Well , good things are happening to my life ike the student leadership camp tt allows me to noe so many other friends and have fun for the week end . t was the only week end tt i did not think of her . it was so fun there. the time was AWESOME hehe.
well for tourism club i was actualy quite sad tt i cannot get the post tt i wanted which is thw public relations . well no matter wat TC still rox haha and also so to the publicity dual . i will not let them down haha. do my best in this so don worry .
Time is going on no matter wat happens to oneself, move on and don look back . when day u look back u will not see regrets, u will see how u went through hardships to be who u are today
what we could have been, 6:03 pm.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be
That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio
Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?
what we could have been, 10:19 am.
Saturday, April 01, 2006
My life now is like tt hole in the photo no matter how hard i try to fill it in with things and activities , there are still gaps and emptiness in my life.
Ppl say i should not be sad over this as i was too fortunate in the past. so even if i lose something v important in life , i am still better off than a lot of other ppl.
Those comforting words aren't working on me at all. because tt sudden sense of loss is stronger than ever. she once said tt she will never leavve me i thought it is true and i never suspected it ever before.
now i noe something else : i noe tt each and every thing in this world is ever changing. Even if this is something tt is 'permanent' is will change with time .
i cant say tt it is wrong it is good tt she can leave me . i have nothing more to give to her . if she can do better off without me ,then i am happy to leave her .
Good times are meant to be remembered . Bad times are meant to be reflected.
To me i remember all those good times in my life , but i am still confused why ,why does this has to happen ?
what have i done wrong ? tell me please , anyone.
what we could have been, 12:34 pm.
