Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens up your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defences, you build up a whole suite of armour, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dump one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul hurt, a real get-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love...
well haha i saw this back at my friend's blog
she copied it from my past entry ... and i copied it from some other famous guy ...
oh well ...
haha i don give up easily ....
i can still remember i got rejected the first time i confessed to a gal ... well i survived that can she was made my first ... ( and that was not the last time ... )
i also remember when i lost all my hopes in future studies ... someone helped me and lifted me up
i can also recall the time when i got rejected by life ... i stood up and look ... i am alive
lastly, when i was young and nothing about me seems right ... someone taught and guided me to the right path ...
well ... here i am ... this is me ...
what we could have been, 10:08 pm.
