Friday, May 15, 2009
She wrote this for me ...
shall dedicate this post to my baby♥
Its not a post to boast about how much boyf loves me
or how much Im loving him.
Its a post that serves as a reflection to myself.
Last night, you told me how much you want to spend your remaining life w me
and that sets me to thinking,
just how much have I really done for this relationship
I mean I did try very hard,
Promise you that I'll have no more contacts w some bastards.
But I didnt really do it.
You said I am perfect.
I find that term very disturbing.
Since nobody can be perfect.
why then can I be perfect?
You said that you believe in happily ever after
but I laughed at you and your naiveness.
there is definitely no such thing as happily ever after
those are all commercialised beliefs arent they?
I thought about it seriously
looked back at all those days
and couldnt rem what have I really done for you.
Right, counting about quantity
the number of times you tried to make me smile
the number of times you tried to surprise me
the number of times you tried to tell me hw much i mean to you
they just seem so many
you waited for me at the airport when I came back frm HK
not knowing which terminal which flight timing which plane company Im taking.
still you waited for hours. from evening till midnight
you bought my favourite food for me when I screwed up my exams
yet inside my mind Im thinking tt I cannot juggle both studies & you.
my parents dislike you
and instead of you being upset,
you told me not to give up
one day they will accept you, your nationality.
the care and concern
its always travelling from you towards me.
and this time
let it be from me to you.
let me do something for you.
starting from cancelling somebodies from our lives, hao ma?
<3
what we could have been, 1:01 pm.
