Thursday, August 06, 2009

Just some random thoughts ...
I just read a very good book named "不想恋爱“ or don't want to be in love

i don know why but i just kind of relates to this character in the story
...

i don't know what is love ... even though i claimed to be loving most of the time ... sometimes i asked myself ... what is love ... why am i doing everything and the end product can't even benefit me ... why am i so happy just to see her smile when the fact is that i just can't stop crying within myself.

I love her ... as the phase suggests ... i have this special emotion for her that cannot be explained just by reasoning ... when you are in something that you can't even reason it out ... you know that you must be in some kind of deep trouble...

she is that trouble ... that deep trouble that i can't get out of ...

but no matter what i say ... when she is not there arguing with me or having cold war with me ...

i feel so alone ...

i guess ... that is love ...

what we could have been, 11:05 pm.